CONTENTS

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS. 4

FAMILY RELATIONSHIPS. 5

PROLOGUE. 8

PART 1 - IF I SHOULD WAKE BEFORE I DIE. 9

ONE - QUARRELING WITH GOD.. 10

TWO - THE FACE OF THE OLD ONE. 20

THREE - SECRETS. 25

FOUR - PERSUASION.. 36

FIVE - THE EAVESDROPPER.. 46

SIX - THE UGLY GOD.. 55

SEVEN - A STORM AT SEA.. 62

EIGHT - UNBOUND.. 84

PART 2 - LANDFALL. 112

NINE - WATCHERS. 113

TEN - SEARCHERS. 126

ELEVEN - HOLES. 138

TWELVE - FRIENDS. 154

THIRTEEN - KILLINGS. 186

FOURTEEN - WORDS. 204

FIFTEEN - DIVISIONS. 224

SIXTEEN - STARMASTER.. 235